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Sunday, July 25th 2010
This day, hmmm, let me say that I’m not just fine,, but actually I’m great,
I’m feelin’ something better here, inside my heart,
Just take icha’s advice that I have to be patient waiting 4 the right time, to give some stuffs to him
And now I’m waiting 4 the right time, I hope It will come sooner than what I guess, huh,,I think that it will be better if I never give that scarf, painting and also the other stuff, that I make by myself, especially for him, just for him,,
But then icha said, “you have to give it to him, you make that stuff special for him, from your deepest heart and love, right baby?”
But I understand that start from now on he will not have any other time 4 me, and I’ve been trying to understand then,,
But actually I’m just nothing for him, I think that it will no use to give that stuff 4 him, coz perhaps he will just throw it up to the recycling bin , right,?
But, I still cannot understand why this belief still stay inside of my heart, that one day he’ll be mine,,
Huh,,
God, help me trough this pressure, I believe U have d best plan for this little girl, give me more patience to wait 4 that final moment when, he will say that pretty words 2 me,,
I believe my heart, which is says that I was born to tell him “ I love you”, I was born to hear “ I love you” from him, I was born to say “I do” when he ask me to b d one 4 him, I was born to have a happy small family with him, i was born to have a beautiful house which is designed by ourselves, I was born to have a beautiful life with him till we are getting older, and was born to believe that, he will be the one I die with,,
I believe 2 what my deepest heart says, I believe it, and I also believe that U’ll make it to be true,,
Amen,,,
One thing that I really want to say to him is just “ I do love you Mr. Headstone”